the unwelcome visitor
when grief comes knocking at my door it bears no warning,
no hi, hello, nor a good morning
it does not tell of its stay or when it will go away
as i feel my body slowly start fading to gray
my voice begins to break and my eyes start to swell
at the sight of the hoodie that still contains your smell
i find myself in your room lying face down on the floor
looking back on all of the memories we've shared before
i seek for ways to heal in my home
even with family around i can’t help but feel all alone
my ears are bleeding from the songs i’ve played a thousand times
and the voices in my head that spin in circles sometimes
when grief goes walking out my door it exits without a word
only the unspoken silence it left can be heard
it’s time to go on with my life, to pretend as if nothing’s wrong
still trying to distract myself like I have been all along
i still think about that night every now and then
you’ve been gone nine months, or maybe it’s been ten
i don’t mean to forget you, but I hate this feeling
because sometimes we just need a little more time for healing